and that's a Rap. From my Heart to Yours

So sometimes I have this problem called not sleeping. It hits me on nights when I have to much going on in my head. Surprisingly enough that's almost every night. I know. It's gotten worse the closer I get to graduating. Sometimes I'll just lay in bed and wait for sleep to come, other times I'll get up and go sit on my couch in the living room. And then there are the nights where words string together in my head and I end up writing for a few good hours and then once I get it all down on paper I can sleep.

So last night it was one of those nights and it turned out all I needed to do was write a rap... or a poem, whatever you feel when you read it. And then I slept. It has no title or a name, but it's personal... so here it is. From my heart to yours.

i need another story,

something to get off my chest

it's getting kinda boring

got something to confess

my life's not glitz and glam

i'm not as good as i may seem

on the outside i look nice

but on the inside my heart is mean

i don't cuss and i don't drink

but you've got to understand

i do the things i do

not to please God, but to please man

i walk around with this cross around my neck

but my sin is piled so high

i can barely tell the speck

in my brother's eye from the plank in my own

you think by now i would have learned

you think by now i would have known

i'm working on it day by day

and what He's given none can take away

but God it's harder than it looks

all those Words You've written in your Book

it may sound easy, yeah i know

but it ain't easy on this road

many will try, but few will find

this grace that has been given

in this thing that we call life

but i know i cannot waste it

all that He has sacrificed

for me to become free

for me to live this life

yeah, i'm still a sinner

but His grace it covers me

for how blind i once was

i now can truly see

and even though i fail

yeah, i stumble and i fall

His love it covers me

He'll still be my All in All

i may not be perfect

i make mistakes, okay

but i choose to follow Him

every second, day by day

the devil, he can try

to break me and to bind me

but God conquers all

He will always find me

no i don't have it all together

no i'm not the best

but as He becomes greater

i become less

so i give this life to Him

yeah, the God that's over all

the One who truly knows my heart

and will answer when i call

i may not be the greatest

but God used the weak to shame the strong

and i pray for all those who don't believe

pray we can prove them wrong

for without Him we are nothing

and in Him we are free

i may not be the strongest

but i can do all things

through Him who strengthens

me.

HIS and yours,

Cami