Thursday, January 26, 2012

When God knows you're ready for the responsibility of commitment.
He'll reveal the right person under the right circumstances.
Wait Patiently.
Don't waste your time searching and wishing.
Grow and be ready.
You will see God will give you a love story far better than you could ever dream of.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

hey Jesus, thanks for today

WOW God is so good.
I just love Him so stinkin' much.
He is just A-mazing and blesses me so much.
I don't know what to do or think except love Him.

Thank You Jesus for today, for yesterday, for tomorrow, and for the rest of my days that I may live in Your presence!

Monday, January 23, 2012

Do Not Be Anxious

" Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God."
-Phil. 4:6.

Wow Jesus. He is just so amazing. It has just been one of those crazy nights that I don't realize how awesome God is until I am sitting still in wonder. God, He has truly won my heart with His never failing presence, matchless love, and fulfillment of every promise! Words cannot describe the fullness I feel right now and the way that He has taken away the anxious feelings that I have been having about everything.

I have no desire or anxious thoughts about the future right now, and whether that contains a man, a job, or a house. I only desire one thing and that which I will seek. to dwell in His house and His presence forever and ever. because right now the only thing that can satisfy my heart is Jesus. and is that not how it's always suppose to be.

Yes Life is tough and my life this past semester or so has not been an easy one. Trial and testing and anxiously waiting for answers seems like it is all I have been doing. And yet God is faithful, even when He cannot be seen or felt. And no matter how long it takes God is gracious. He takes His time. We might think He's taking too long when, in His goodness, He is just waiting for us to line up with the work He's doing in us. He won't rush. He is patient. And He has shown me that tonight, that no matter what happens. No matter who I think I might like right now, or where I might be working in the years to come. He's timing and His plans are perfect and far better than I could ever imagine.

But whatever we're facing in life, or whatever is coming in our future. Whether it is a job, a marriage, a family, school, or life in general. God has already given us the faith for it. It may not look like it, and we may feel like we have what it takes to overcome, but faith in God isn't based on our circumstance or how we feel. The enemy would like for us to believe that we don't have a chance in life, that we're too weak, too poor, too whatever. But God has a different view of us. God sees us through the eyes of love. He sees not what we can be, but what He has invested in in not what we or what others may see.

Seeing YOURSELF the way God sees you leads to a life of overwhelming victory.

But it takes faith. And living a life of faith means never knowing where you are being led- but it does mean loving and knowing the One who is leading. It's literally a life of FAITH not of reason and understanding not knowing where you are going to be in twenty years or even tomorrow just knowing Him who call us to go. We can't just hear that God loves us and see us as His child, we have to believe it. It takes faith to move forward and overcome the challenges in life. "He who is in you is greater than He who is the world" -John 4:4.

The truth is, the One in us is greater and He loves us. So let us stretch our faith today and see ourselves the way God see us. It doesn't matter what the enemy wants us to see or how things might look. Our faith overcomes through the One who lives in us. So we may not know where we are or where we are heading, but if it is where we are supposed to be... God will take us there.

Waiting Faithfully on His timing,

HIS and yours,


Monday, January 16, 2012

A Future of Trust

"Faith today is treated as something that only should make us different, not that it actually does or can make us different. In reality we vainly struggle against the evils of this world, waiting to die and go to heaven. Somehow we’ve gotten the idea that the essence of faith is entirely a mental and inward thing." -Dallas Willard.
I've been asked to speak. I am at my wits end here, I keep looking at all these other people's lives and seeing what they have done and I cannot help but think that I am inadequate. Inadequate to speak to people, to serve people, to do the things that God is asking and yet He keeps on asking. But what do I, this twenty one year old lost girl, who does not know where she is going or what she has to offer anyone, especially God?
Why is it so easy to turn our backs on Him? One of the most powerful reason we do not totally surrender our lives to Christ is that we do not want to sacrifice the things we possess; because the truth is they have begun to possess us. These things can include our jobs, our material assets, our money, our communities and our friends, and even our families. We cling to them, often out of a desire for security, comfort, and happiness, even though we know in our hearts that we can only find real happiness by serving the Lord. Consequently, our things become idols. In fact, anything we put ahead of God in our lives becomes an idol. Jonah learned that lesson the hard way. God cannot give you the blessings He has for you until you first put down the other things you are clutching in your hands.
The words sound so easy but the action is the hard part. But living out this faith is not about going through the motions and it is not about just thinking or wishing or hoping or praying, but it is putting those things into action. To throwing everything that is in our hands down and lifting them up to Jesus. I've heard so many people say you need to spend four hours in prayer and fours hours in the word and this many ours worshiping. And they make it sound so easy but my question is. Have you ever been to college? How are we supposed to do all of these things, that they are saying will make us "better Christians" and still be in the world, spreading the Gospel. If we are shut in doing all these things, how are people suppose to hear? For me that's a hard thing to grasp onto, because I would much rather be with someone sharing the Gospel, then shut up in my room trying to pray. Now this is not to say that doing these things are wrong, I love the time I get alone with God, but I love the time I get with God and with others, it is one of the only ways I know how to share His love, loving on other people. Though sometimes I do a horrible job at it, I love it.
The truth is, I do not have this Christ-like life down, and I know I am not anywhere close. I fall and fail everyday of my life, it is a constant battle, a constant reminder that I am a sinner and God has more for me. But each day I wake up with His love in my heart and His light in my life, and I know that He is with me and what else can I do but surrender to Him and let Him guide me. It is hard to let go of, scary even. My future, the things I am going to be doing the rest of my life. I have no idea where I am going. I have no job, no boyfriend, no place to live, and no clue what is going to happen come the day of graduation. But I do have One thing, and that is God, and with Him I know I can go anywhere and do anything. Because He is always with me and His love never NEVER EVER fails. He is taking care of me and I know that it is time to let Him, to throw my life to the sky and let Him take a hold of it. to Wait. Wait. Wait. to Surrender my daunting future to Him and you know what. I trust Him.

Waiting on His Call,

HIS and yours,


"In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps." -Proverbs 16:9

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Sleeplessly Anxious

I can't sleep.
It seems to be a re-occurring theme when I am home for break. I think it is because I have time to think. To actually think. To think about what I am going to do once graduation comes. To think about the friends I have made and whether they will be lifetime friendships. To think about my passions, my desires, and the fact that as I sit here I think about how almost four years ago I thought I had it all figured out. And then God got a hold of my heart and turned my entire world into his upside down flip-flopped Kingdom. Because I want to be fully complete in Him, lacking nothing. But I feel like I lack everything it takes.

Four years ago, I thought I was going to be a high school English teacher and a writer. Thought I would teach the rest of my life, get through college, get a job, get a husband, get a house, have a family, and all that comes after that. But I realize looking back at that plan, God was no where to be seen. And here I stand almost four years and four majors later, about to graduate college and well none of that plan I had my freshman year of college looks like it is going to happen. I guess that is what happens when Gods grabs a hold of a heart and reveals that this life is more important then me. It's for Him.